have you ever been in love?

“Have you ever been in love?
Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable.

It opens your chest and it opens up your heart
and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses,
you build up a whole suit of armor,
so that nothing can hurt from any other stupid person,
wanders into your stupid life…
You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it.
They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you,
and then your life isn’t your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and
leaves you crying in the darkness,
so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’
turn into a glass splinter working its own way into your heart. It hurts.
Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.
It’s a soul-hurt,
a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.



Neil gailman